I never want to share on here when I am experiencing difficulties, because I feel I “ought” to be doing/feel/managing things better at this point in my life and recovery. Recently though, I have been struggling more, both psychologically and emotionally. This is also why I have been slacking with my blog. I have been mentally exhausted.
I haven’t relapsed with any self-harming behaviours, thank goodness. The struggles have been related predominately to my increased low mood, unpredictable periods of intense anxiety, and intrusive thoughts I have been experiencing.
I am also having a hard time letting go of the resentment and sadness I feel towards being ill at this point in time. Though I know this ruminating is only going to be fueling the negative emotions further, I feel righteous within my anger and upset all the same.
My friend sent me a beautiful excerpt from a Mindfulness book, which I have been trying to practice. I thought I would share it with you all: