Today has been so painful I cannot even begin to explain.
As the dissociation lifts, I am flooded with everything my body and brain have been trying to protect me from.
Hello again old familiar pain which cannot be described through mere words on a page.
Hello sadness so bottomless it has no end, and the waterfall of tears so powerful nothing can stop the flow.
Hello loneliness which pervades no matter how many people surround me nor how desperately I try to fill the void within.
Hello longing, and emptiness, and that familiar insatiable need I know so, very, well – too well.
There is no way, NO WAY at all, to describe how much life hurts right now.