I’m supposed to be accumulating more positives into my life, as part of my therapy homework. Usually I feel guilty not studying as I have exams coming up, but I really am trying to make life feel worth living, and so I have to branch out of my books and my bed on occasion!
I am trying to stop declining invitations and instead say yes to opportunities which come my way, instead of hiding and avoiding life. This weekend there have been more invitations than usual:
Today I went to a Cake Show, something I’ve never done before. I had a really lovely time there and was extremely mindful, observing all the smells and sights around me.
On the way back we sang Disney songs to prepare for the cinema… We then went to see The Jungle Book in 3D, which I had been looking forward to for ages. I get highly emotional in 3D movies with stunning visuals, super connected, and become totally one with the moment and the story.
I cried twice, once with immense glee and once deep sadness, but they were both beautiful moments and welcome tears nonetheless. I thought to myself “This is why I am alive, so that I can experience moments like this”.
After that we got sushi which was the perfect way to top off the day. I am trying to remind myself that life is worth living for days like this one. Today I have actually felt able to connect with the positive experiences around me and feel joyful for the first time in too long. It’s been really special and meaningful. I even noticed gratitude – which came as a total shock to me! I needed a day like today.